Time goes by so fast. Minutes and hours quickly turn into days and weeks. Before we know it, we’re having another birthday and wondering where the time has gone. Most of us have at least an internal list of promises we’ve made to ourselves, to God and to others of what we’ll get done and how we’ll do better. Sometimes if we are intentional and purposeful, we follow through. Many times, life happens and we keep adding to our ever growing list of resolutions and do betters.
After a weekend full of mom, nana, wife and work activities, I finally laid my head on my pillow to rest. As I waited an extra few minutes for my body to settle, I exhaled and let the day’s activities replay in my mind. With all the duties I had fulfilled, the promises I’d kept and the things I’d done to make the lives of the people I love better, I wondered in the silence if God was pleased with my life?
It’s easy to quickly justify that I’m doing good things, loving people, being productive, watching my response to others and trying to live God’s Word. But in that quiet moment, I thought about God’s perspective instead of my own. What did He think? What did He prefer for my life? Was He pleased? I wanted to cry at the thought of disappointing Him and I held my breath. I wondered if I was living like a Martha who was busy doing good things (even some for God’s kingdom) instead of like a Mary who understood the more important posture of sitting at His feet.
What is my daily posture to God in all the doing? Am I humble before Him relying on His strength and guidance or hurriedly living on autopilot doing what I’ve always done? Am I willing to change everything and do something new because that is God’s will for my life or do I stubbornly hold on to what’s familiar? Am I so full of societal norms and knowledge that I don’t have space to study God’s Word? Am I asking God for forgiveness for the same things I did last year because I put priority on the wrong things this year?
My greatest fear is living an entire life and missing Him. I am desperate to please God. Everything else must come second.
Have you ever wondered what God thinks about your life?
Luke 10:41-42 But the Lord answered and said to her, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and bothered about so many things; but only one thing is necessary, for Mary has chosen the good part, which shall not be taken away from her.”
1 Peter 4:17 ESV For it is time for judgment to begin at the household of God; and if it begins with us, what will be the outcome for those who do not obey the gospel of God?
Matthew 7:21 ESV Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven.
Romans 14:12 ESV So then each of us will give an account of himself to God.
James 4: 14-15 NASB Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away. Instead, you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and also do this or that.
Psalm 119:11 KJV Thy word have I hid in mine heart, that I might not sin against thee.
Galatians 1:10 CEB Am I trying to win over human beings or God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I wouldn’t be Christ’s slave.
